
They say a girl’s first true love is the one that sticks with her till the end of time
So why haven’t i experienced mine?
Every night i close my eyes and try to draw images of you but i’m left with a blank page
I try to play happy scenarios in my head but all i get is sadness and a harsh wave of reality that i would never get to experience my first love
Sometimes i feel abandoned but how can i be abandoned if i was never accepted?
I try to move on with the other half of my heart but i see the scars you left on her body
I see her try to fill the void you left
I see her cry at night because she believes she isn’t enough
The hatred i feel towards you grows
This hate is eating me up
Now i go about with little to no expectations from man
Now i can barely hold a conversation with a man without seeing your reflection
They say to move on
How can i move on from something holding me down?
If only i could control it, like a magician i would wave my wand and “abracadabra” it into thin air
But i’m a slave to it
Everyday i wake up, chained, trying to break loose
But they’re too strong
So i give in , so i don’t lose the last strength left in me
My first love ruined me
Thank you Dad
Wow. This is beautiful and sad.
I love it. I felt every emotion.
Thank you for sharing.
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thank you for reading ♥️
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This piece is lovely ❤️
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This is beautiful ❤️
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This is so beautiful & sad and bits of it resonates with me.
I hope you heal from whatever you’re going through.
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I’ve been crying since I read this. It’s just soooo…too much but I know you’ll heal, my babygirl. You will heal and be fine cos you’re strong and God’s got you. You will look back on this day and smile at how far you’ve come. Hold on and don’t give in. It’s all gonna end in praise. 🤗❤😍
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